I was watching Beyonce’s Self-Titled Part 2 and I started thinking about perfection. Over the past year I have become comfortable with the idea or the life style or whatever it is, the word idk?? But I remembered I used to hate it, any form of perfection made me uncomfortable. I didn’t believe it was a thing and I hated it. I didn’t like the unrealistic, harsh nature of the word so I rejected it. When people used to call someone or something perfect I would feel physically sick, honestly I was so repulsed by the word I worked myself up about thinking about it so much. Any time anyone would say it or refer to it, I would ignore the idea instead of discussing it.

THAT IS SO DUMB.

Why? In Hermione’s words ‘fear of a name only increases fear of the thing itself’ which massively applies to this situation. I was no longer angry about what perfection is and its context I was angry with the letters and the word being said. I didn’t even know what perfection was and it scared me so much I denounced the word.

It sounds stupid but when one d released ‘Perfect’ I became wholly comfortable with the word. I heard a snippet before it was released of just ‘baby I’m perfect for you’ and I was like WHY?? COS YOU’RE NOT LOUIS. But then I heard the rest of the song and in Harry’s words it just means ‘I’m not perfect, I really like you and if you wanna have fun this could be great type thing’ (also the message for my answering machine) and it’s basically just because you’re NOT perfect, you’re therefore perfect which is idk I think that’s sick.

I have only been comfortable with the word for just over a year now and I like having it there. It’s a good word and it doesn’t hold the heavy meaning I gave to it. I made it seem like so much more than it was. I made it destructive and powerful but why? I made the word bad, it was never bad. What people pair with words is what gives them meaning.

‘Perfection’ is the perfect example because things that are used to describe outer beauty are subjective. THEY ARE SUBJECTIVE. This I try to tell my media teacher and she doesn’t understand but they mean nothing until you allow them to mean something. I realise now I love the word perfection because it means a completely different thing to me than it does to you, than it does to anyone and everyone and I just find that so exciting. It’s so good to think differently and have opposite opinions to people.

The real idea of perfection is exciting because everyone has potential to be perfect. With my old idea of perfection there were rules and guidelines. They were fixed and I didn’t decide what was perfect, I saw a common theme in what people like and called that perfection. I thought perfection was the best of the best and potentially achievable. I thought it was only a word for looks. But to me, now, perfect changes everyday. One day it can be a perfect thought, next it can be a perfect song or trying to perfect a dance or piece of work. I love it. I love how it means nothing but also everything.

If your idea of perfection is achievable, change it. It should be the ultimate unachievable goal. It should be constantly changing incase you get too close and it should apply to all areas of life. If anything is ever perfect then acknowledge it and move on. Because when you say to someone ‘I can do that perfectly’ they might be thinking ‘babe, ur shit :))))’.