IT’S BEEN TWO YEARS SINCE I CREATED MOLLYIHARLEY.COM!!! my exact words were ‘like every other media student with a dream i’ve created a blog’! The reason I’m so proud of this blog is because people have come yo me and said they can relate to a post or a post actually made them think about something or helped them with an issue they had that was similar. I’m so grateful to all the people who read this blog and like it (or hate it, it still counts as a view on my website so i win u lose h8rs). My life had changed so much since I made this blog. lol m life has changed drastically since fucking yesterday and I’m so glad to have this blog to look back on. All I can say to u is that I’m so proud of my growth and who I am now. My biggest thanks has to go to art foundation and mainly the tutors cos as u guys know I love it so much and no person has changed my life as much as jeb (maybe nick. tRUe) and i truly believe that everything i do from this point on is owed to the art foundation (but especially jeb). SO all I can say is heartbreak is sometimes funny, friends are more important than boys, gin and tonic is the best drink of all time and ur solo romance (see previous post)!! lord knows it’s the most exciting romance of ur life!! I’m currently in Suffolk after a bad moment (dreams crushed kinda bad moment) so I’m actually feeling blessed xoxXX cos I’ve had the best day of my life.

SO HAPPY TWO YEAR AVERSARY I LOVE U ALL XXXX here’s the actual blogpost lol soz

I think one of the most influential things I’ve acquired in the last 6 months is self respect. It’s funny how before I thought that having no self respect or no dignity was funny. Like I’d do something stupid and then justify it by saying ‘dw I’ve lost all self respect hahah !!!’. But looking back on the stuff I did I was just being ridiculous. I put myself on the line and didn’t care how it would hurt me or affect me which was really detrimental to all areas of life.

I think being at art foundation made me realise that people respect me so why do I not respect myself. I didn’t really understand what having self respect meant but I think it’s really about knowing yourself enough to know what u should/nt could/nt would/nt do. For example, I know I hate going out into town when it’s raining and cold but I would do it anyway cos I didn’t care about myself enough to say no. Now I know what I will and won’t do based on myself and my preferences and love for myself. I love myself too much to walk from new town to old town in the rain and ruin my coat and morale just to get the 22:50 home.

I thought it was funny to fancy every person under the sun (especially when they didn’t fancy me) and I accepted being second best and allowing people to laugh at me being so ridiculous. but now I respect myself too much to accept such a small amount of attention and appreciation from people who don’t respect or appreciate me. Like honestly a boy would laugh at my joke once and then not speak to me and I’d be happy with just that. They’d leave me on read and I’d be like ‘well, at least they opened it’ but that’s just not enough is it. like I know my worth now and I respect myself too much to accept any treatment that I regard as disrespectful to me. I let people and especially boys walk all over me and now I’m like babes I’ve got purple patent public desire boots, I’m walking n ur watching xo

I think to respect yourself, you have to know yourself which is much much MUCH easier said than done. but I think because my personality was changing last year I didn’t know who I was so I didn’t know how to respect that person. Now I’m much more aware of what makes me happy or angry or sad or laugh or what makes me beautiful (love u always one d). And I know how to acquire the things that make me happy and I can recognise what parts of my life are making me unhappy and try to solve them instead of brushing the issue under the carpet by fancying some boy.

I think when u do something rash but u do it with dignity somehow it comes off with an air of sophistication and purpose because it was done in that way. when u do stuff with no self respect u look foolish and people can’t respect u cos u don’t respect urself (the old classic line).

I think sometimes ridiculous things can happen to you and u can’t control it and so u just have to try and handle it the best u can whilst maintaining respect but sometimes it’s easier just to do it and not care what you’re doing to yourself in consequence. And self respect is knowing the difference. It’s like liking someone who is giving u nothing, sometimes you just have to let it be and accept they don’t like u back and u can’t change it so respect urself enough to walk away which is so hard to do. But look at me now, I’m happy with my life and myself and thank beyonce above that that ship sailed.

So I think sometimes it’s not about looking at your life and only seeing the things u lack. It’s about looking and seeing how sick u are and once u do that it’s a lot easier to respect yourself. There’s a quote from something and I cannot remember what but it’s like why do we let the one thing we don’t have affect how we feel about all the things we do have hahah omg it’s sex and the city classic

so I’m not saying self respect grows over night but once you realise how important it is, ur life will become a lot easier and happier because you’ll know what u do/don’t need and what u do/don’t want, even if it breaks ur heart, you’ll know ur doing the right thing and self respect should help fix it in the long run x

I think u should look at your life and find 3 things that make u unique and say them to urself 5 times a day. It doesn’t have to be anything big, just tiny things u do that u believe demand respect and honestly you’ll be walking like ur balancing something on ur chin.

So respect urself cos I respect u xxx