Yesterday I was watching a vid about a man with psoriasis because it came up in my recommended search which is weird cos normally that’s filled with birthing videos and ‘Harry styles cute&funny moments 2013’. It was this man standing in front of a camera talking about his psoriasis and he was doing a weekly update. I looked at the comments and some of them were so mean!! They were like ‘please can you keep your top on, it makes me uncomfortable’ and ‘don’t come so close up to the camera’ and I actually was like CAN U FUCK OFF PLEASE YOU IGNORANT DICK.

I also watched this programme about a woman who had psoriasis and she was 20 and barely left the house cos she didn’t want to make people uncomfortable. Which is so unfair that she should put her life on hold for other people.

So I tweeted about it and got 7 likes including a like from @psoriaisuk 😏  and I thought I should go in depth.

Basically, I have psoriasis but I literally don’t care cos I bet I have smoother skin than all of you cos I have to apply cream more than I breathe :)))))))

Boring science stuff so skip, if u don’t care, to the next paragraph xxx psoriasis is basically your skin cells like renewing themselves too much. So a person without psoriasis gets new skin cells every month?? maybe a bit longer?? but mine reproduce every few days because, my immune system was too hyped up from the viral cold I had, yaaaay, so like the rest of my mentality, it is so ready and overdoes/thinks everything :)) and I’ve always been destined to have it, double yaaaay, cos it’s in my genes. So I mean that was boring but now you know if you didn’t. Also don’t look up psoriasis on google images cos it’s only EXTREME cases and mine was never that bad, There are also different types of psoriasis and the one i had wasn’t like the images on there.

I had it all over my face at one point and I have never felt so ugly in my life. I literally abstained from mirrors (#buyLEMONDADEonitunes) and found it hard to be like a normal functioning person. This was when I didn’t know I had psoriasis I thought my skin was taking its time to slowly peel off the face of the earth and that my doctor was out to ruin my life whilst telling me I was fine ha. I also thought this period of time was a sign that I should stop being so confident and instead be passive and pathetic.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH LOL FUCK OFF NEVER HAPPENING.

But then it got better and I am back!!! I actually am happy again and it was actually the saddest period of my life. But, oooo I was gunna write I’m grateful it happened but I don’t think I’m at that point yet soz. So I’m kinda like fine that it happened cos now I look in the mirror when I look kinda gross and maybe have a spot or I’m a bit red and think ‘I actually look fine and my psoriasis isn’t visible. So stop crying about a dumb stupid thing that isn’t long lasting’

My psoriasis made me a nicer person I think because I’m empathetic to people’s problems. My sister has diabetes and I feel a lot more sympathy towards her, but don’t worry Ellie cos I’ll still make you laugh every time you inject because I’m the most annoying sister you have. I can’t give you an example of how I’m nicer I just am. I’m a lot more patient and forgiving because I get that whole thing now. I don’t think you’ll understand what I mean unless you’ve been through something like this because it’s a specific emotion, the same way I won’t understand the majority of emotions you have because of an event that happened in your life.

Now I’d like to thank my mum because she has literally dealt with so much shit and me being a whiny psoriasis ridden bitch. My sister Alex for calling me an ugly slag throughout this experience. I’m not joking, she has always called me that and if she stopped just because I had psoriasis I would feel like I had changed mentally AND physically which would be shiiiit. Anna and Con for looking at my psoriasis and keloid everyday and being honest, considerate and interested about the whole thing. I would also like to thank my phototherapy nurse, my girl Rachel. All of my friends who have told me I look nice even when I was human dot to dot. And most of all I’d like to thank all the boys who have continued to ignore me throughout this whole thing, luv u too xxxx